When He's There...and You Want to Be Too

This week has been hard for me.  My husband is in Guatemala loving on the children at Dorie's Promise and working in the surrounding community of Guatemala City.  It hasn't been hard because he is gone (although that is no walk in the park).  It is hard because I want to be there. 

Eight years ago, I stepped foot in Guatemala to meet my daughter...and since then my life has never been the same. 

 

I have grown to love the people and culture of Guatemala.  In addition, God has placed a burden on my heart for orphans who will never know the love of a forever family.

 

So, when I  skype with him and hear his excitement for the people he is meeting or the lives that are being changed with water filters, chicken coops, and cement floors....I feel jealous!  I know God has called me here, at home, for this week...but knowing God's plan and truly accepting God's plan are often two different things.  As I am here canning green beans, doing laundry, making meals, going to speech therapy appointments, I often feel like God had to have more than this in mind for me.  I mean He gave me this huge heart for orphans...and I haven't been on a missions trip in two years.  What is going on...has He forgotten that He placed these desires in my heart....does He not see that others are living out my "heart"?

As I was having a pity party for myself, I received this email from my dear friend who is also in Guatemala this week.
"To think this all goes back to Brian and you adopting Anna! You guys never knew how this would have grown and how many people would be coming to the special place in your heart-Guatemala"
It was like God was giving me a hug and telling me to hold on...He hasn't forgotten me...He has a plan much bigger than I could ever imagine.  So, I am choosing to thank God for the little girl who changed my heart...

and the people who gave up their week of vacation to love on "the least of these" in  Guatemala.

 

Psalm 27:14  "Wait for the Lord.  Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the Lord."